Previously in my life, I have struggled with depression and anxiety, ADHD, addiction, emotional and sexual abuse from a partner, and just a vague sense of disconnection that I couldn’t quite place. I hadn’t really had any visible “trauma”, yet I suffered a variety of symptoms including chronic pain. (I later learned that bodily symptoms can manifest in those who were raised with disordered family patterns of attachment, which are widespread in our modern society.) I was in and out of therapy over the years, without ever having a major breakthrough.
My journey to becoming a practitioner started in earnest in October 2014 when I was attacked by a stranger while riding my bicycle home at night. The physical injuries healed within weeks, but for months afterward I was unable to leave the house or go about my normal daily activities. I felt helpless and disconnected, frozen between intense flashbacks and waves of uncontrollable emotion. Sleep disturbances, noise sensitivity and panic attacks plagued me. I had all the symptoms of PTSD.
I tried trauma-oriented talk therapy, and although I really liked my therapist and found her very compassionate, the process of trying to talk about what happened actually made my symptoms worse. I began searching for alternative healing methods, and that’s when I found Somatic Experiencing (SE).
My first SE session was a revelation to me. The session felt simple, clear, and meditative. We focused gently on the body sensations that were arising in the moment, rather than going over the story in my head of what happened. The practitioner offered gentle, over-the-clothes touch to help my body feel safe. We also focused on my resilience by recognizing that I lived through it, I made it. After only one session, I felt like a Human Being for the first time in months. After only 15 sessions, I felt better than I had before the trauma happened. SE gave me my life back, and completely resolved all my PTSD symptoms.
I knew then I had to pay it forward and share this work with the world. I immediately signed up for training to become a Somatic Experiencing Practitioner (SEP) and Certified Yoga Therapist (C-IAYT). With the ancient wisdom of yoga and the modern science of body-oriented trauma modalities, I believe I can offer a well-rounded approach that brings mind and body together for deep, lasting and integrated healing.
In 2019, my husband and I moved to Evansville, Indiana, where I started my private practice. I am continuing my education with Gabor Mate’s Compassionate Inquiry to uproot and re-direct patterns that arise from early attachment issues and family patterns of addiction. Soon I will complete Kathy Kain’s Touch Skills Training to better address symptoms of adrenal fatigue and chronic dysregulation.